{"podcast":{"title":"The Shadow Sessions","slug":"the-shadow-sessions-7629928","podcast_index_feed_id":7629928,"rss_url":"https://feeds.megaphone.fm/TPG2074943060","website_url":"https://www.theshadowsessionspodcast.com","image_url":"https://megaphone.imgix.net/podcasts/508c7f04-d53c-11f0-b71b-e3c48ce77e6b/image/197508254b9c224e2d1fc897170e5141.png?ixlib=rails-4.3.1&max-w=3000&max-h=3000&fit=crop&auto=format,compress","author":"Hiba Balfaqih","episode_count":31,"summary":"The Shadow Sessions is hosted by Hiba Balfaqih, an unconventional psychologist and trauma alchemist. We explore the stories that most people bury—particularly those tied to shame, trauma, and identity. Our goal is to shed light on the hidden corners of human experience, allowing listeners to hear stories that challenge societal norms and spark deep,introspective conversations.","last_synced_at":"2026-07-30T16:19:48.311441+00:00","page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/the-shadow-sessions-7629928"},"episode":{"title":"I Killed My Abuser","slug":"i-killed-my-abuser","published_at":"2026-06-24T23:00:00+00:00","page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/the-shadow-sessions-7629928/i-killed-my-abuser","show_page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/the-shadow-sessions-7629928","url":"https://www.podtrac.com/pts/redirect.mp3/pdst.fm/e/tracking.swap.fm/track/tcQd6Q6C0RUUlOHq1Ytj/mgln.ai/e/51/pscrb.fm/rss/p/traffic.megaphone.fm/TPG3516975837.mp3","audio_url":"https://www.podtrac.com/pts/redirect.mp3/pdst.fm/e/tracking.swap.fm/track/tcQd6Q6C0RUUlOHq1Ytj/mgln.ai/e/51/pscrb.fm/rss/p/traffic.megaphone.fm/TPG3516975837.mp3","summary":"What happens when the people meant to protect you never do? In this episode of The Shadow Sessions, Hiba Balfaqih speaks with David, who spent years growing up in an environment shaped by fear, control, and abuse. When systems that are supposed to intervene fail, trauma does not simply disappear—it adapts, accumulates, and leaves lasting psychological consequences. This conversation is not about violence. It is about what comes before it. The chronic stress of living in survival mode. The impact of prolonged childhood trauma on identity, emotional regulation, and the nervous system. And the reality of growing up without safety, support, or a path to escape. David reflects on the lasting effects of abuse, the weight of silence, and the difficult questions that emerge when trauma is left untreated for years. Together, they explore accountability, survival, and what happens when pain is forced underground until it can no longer stay there. This episode is about childhood trauma, systemic failure, and the lifelong search for healing after protection never arrived.","meta_description":"What happens when the people meant to protect you never do? In this episode of The Shadow Sessions, Hiba Balfaqih speaks with David, who spent years growi…","key_points":[],"chapters":[],"topics":[],"duration_seconds":3706,"processing_state":"not_requested","actions":[{"name":"request_transcript","method":"POST","url":"https://stenobird.com/v1/public/podcasts/the-shadow-sessions-7629928/episodes/i-killed-my-abuser/transcription-requests","description":"Idempotently request low-priority transcript generation for this episode."},{"name":"read_markdown","method":"GET","url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/the-shadow-sessions-7629928/i-killed-my-abuser.md","description":"Read the agent-friendly Markdown representation of this episode resource."}]}}