{"podcast":{"title":"The Nuance Diaries","slug":"the-nuance-diaries-7119430","podcast_index_feed_id":7119430,"rss_url":"https://api.substack.com/feed/podcast/1646872.rss","website_url":"https://thenuancediaries.substack.com/podcast","image_url":"https://substackcdn.com/feed/podcast/1646872/d261d626912eca102e8a79ca09de2e70.jpg","author":"Alexa Juanita Jordan","episode_count":59,"summary":"You know those texts that are reserved for the group chat? That's the kind of vibe you'll find here. Consider my vulnerability a permission slip for yours.","last_synced_at":"2026-06-29T04:19:15.401476+00:00","page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/the-nuance-diaries-7119430"},"episode":{"title":"The Waves are Calling","slug":"the-waves-are-calling","published_at":"2025-10-30T17:10:42+00:00","page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/the-nuance-diaries-7119430/the-waves-are-calling","show_page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/the-nuance-diaries-7119430","url":"https://thenuancediaries.substack.com/p/the-waves-are-calling","audio_url":"https://api.substack.com/feed/podcast/177512294/a8a87f3f5186cad088277bee57611670.mp3","summary":"This is a free preview of a paid episode. To hear more, visit thenuancediaries.substack.com I wrote this song before and after one of the worst anxiety attacks of my life. The first verse or so came to me on the F train, coming home from Gowanus, Brooklyn. And then the rest came to me very quickly, almost 24 hours later, when I was back in my body. It was the first time that I had really, really intense physical anxiety that wasn’t accompanied by depression. They are the best of friends, depression and anxiety. I’m not used to seeing one without the other. It was the first time in my life that I was this anxious about good things. I wrote out a whole essay about the inspiration behind this song and what was going on while I wrote it — and then I deleted it. I feel like I just want to let it speak for itself first. You’re also, as always, welcome to read the lyrics as a poem first, or instead. Who I had to be to be with you is who I am no longer We had some good times but now it’s time I start running further You and I, we’re standing still The water’s fine and even still The waves are calling, so I won’t be calling you anymore","meta_description":"This is a free preview of a paid episode. To hear more, visit thenuancediaries.substack.com I wrote this song before and after one of the worst anxiety at…","key_points":[],"chapters":[],"topics":[],"duration_seconds":65,"processing_state":"not_requested","actions":[{"name":"request_transcript","method":"POST","url":"https://stenobird.com/v1/public/podcasts/the-nuance-diaries-7119430/episodes/the-waves-are-calling/transcription-requests","description":"Idempotently request low-priority transcript generation for this episode."},{"name":"read_markdown","method":"GET","url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/the-nuance-diaries-7119430/the-waves-are-calling.md","description":"Read the agent-friendly Markdown representation of this episode resource."}]}}