{"podcast":{"title":"The Nuance Diaries","slug":"the-nuance-diaries-7119430","podcast_index_feed_id":7119430,"rss_url":"https://api.substack.com/feed/podcast/1646872.rss","website_url":"https://thenuancediaries.substack.com/podcast","image_url":"https://substackcdn.com/feed/podcast/1646872/d261d626912eca102e8a79ca09de2e70.jpg","author":"Alexa Juanita Jordan","episode_count":59,"summary":"You know those texts that are reserved for the group chat? That's the kind of vibe you'll find here. Consider my vulnerability a permission slip for yours.","last_synced_at":"2026-06-29T04:19:15.401476+00:00","page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/the-nuance-diaries-7119430"},"episode":{"title":"How I Found My Broken Hallelujah pt. 1 of 4","slug":"how-i-found-my-broken-hallelujah-pt-1-of-4","published_at":"2026-03-15T21:40:50+00:00","page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/the-nuance-diaries-7119430/how-i-found-my-broken-hallelujah-pt-1-of-4","show_page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/the-nuance-diaries-7119430","url":"https://thenuancediaries.substack.com/p/how-i-found-my-broken-hallelujah","audio_url":"https://api.substack.com/feed/podcast/190864134/9aef358b87d9ed56fd3f0b7db1ce41f2.mp3","summary":"On the eve of the lunar new year, three days before my birthday, I finally threw out the jagged glass pieces of a mug that I had broken six months ago. I never thought it would take me six months to throw out a reminder of one of the worst nights of my life, but here I was. I held it in my hands one last time. I took a few pictures (even though I already had plenty.) I outlined the pink handle and some of the remaining pieces that were still intact with a charcoal pencil on my tracing pad, in case I wanted to create an art project later. (I’ve been super into Oil Pastels lately.) I carefully put the broken pieces in a plastic bag. I broke the mug even further — deliberately this time, for catharsis. And then I let every last piece go. I can tell you why that broken mug was one of my favorites in one sentence — Because it’s perfect. It’s the definition of “pretty girl avenue”: a gorgeous glass mug with a bronze/gold Barbie dream house on the front, and a perfect pink handle. I drank out of it nearly every day from my waterfront patio in San Diego. It also came in a set of two. I still have the other, identical, unbroken mug. So why keep the broken one for six months? Because of how it broke. Here are a few things that happened in the 24 - 48 hours before the broken mug incident. Taylor Swift got engaged, and my corner of the internet exploded. I somehow managed to not to scream at the reception desk I was temping at, when my best friend’s sister texted me the news. It was the biggest explosion of girlhood. My fifteen-year-old self was bursting at the seams. I wrote a spontaneous Substack piece about Taylor’s engagement, which went kind of viral thanks to threads. It was easily my most successful post in over a year. ( You can read it here. ) I landed on the Substack ris…","meta_description":"On the eve of the lunar new year, three days before my birthday, I finally threw out the jagged glass pieces of a mug that I had broken six months ago. I…","key_points":[],"chapters":[],"topics":[],"duration_seconds":590,"processing_state":"not_requested","actions":[{"name":"request_transcript","method":"POST","url":"https://stenobird.com/v1/public/podcasts/the-nuance-diaries-7119430/episodes/how-i-found-my-broken-hallelujah-pt-1-of-4/transcription-requests","description":"Idempotently request low-priority transcript generation for this episode."},{"name":"read_markdown","method":"GET","url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/the-nuance-diaries-7119430/how-i-found-my-broken-hallelujah-pt-1-of-4.md","description":"Read the agent-friendly Markdown representation of this episode resource."}]}}