{"podcast":{"title":"The Crappy Childhood Fairy Podcast with Anna Runkle","slug":"the-crappy-childhood-fairy-podcast-with-anna-runkle-5678290","podcast_index_feed_id":5678290,"rss_url":"https://app.kajabi.com/podcasts/2147504615/feed","website_url":"https://courses.crappychildhoodfairy.com/podcasts/the-crappy-childhood-fairy-podcast-with-anna-runkle","image_url":"https://kajabi-storefronts-production.kajabi-cdn.com/kajabi-storefronts-production/site/2147590099/podcasts/06ab97be-3226-4612-b45a-bb63681ca595.jpeg","author":"Anna Runkle","episode_count":620,"summary":"I’m Anna Runkle, also known as the Crappy Childhood Fairy, and I teach people to recognize and heal the symptoms of Childhood Trauma. Welcome to my podcast!I’m not a doctor or therapist; I know about childhood trauma because I lived it, and I discovered a radical approach to healing that focuses first on calming neurological dysregulation, which is common in people who grew up with abuse and neglect. In my podcasts, I teach about dysregulation – how to know if you have it, what it can do to your body, your thinking and your relationships, and what to do to master re-regulation. When I learned this, everything in my life got suddenly easier. I’ll also be teaching you to heal the life problems that so often develop after years of living dysregulated – feeling tired, isolated and unfocused, finding yourself always drawn to unavailable and inappropriate partners, and falling WAY short of your professional potential, for example. The thing about me is, traditional therapies never seemed to help me. When I found techniques that did work, my whole life changed. Only in the past few years has the trauma research caught up to explain why – why the techniques I use worked, why therapy didn’…","last_synced_at":"2026-08-02T06:23:18.050539+00:00","page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/the-crappy-childhood-fairy-podcast-with-anna-runkle-5678290"},"episode":{"title":"Feeling You've Wasted Years of Your Life","slug":"feeling-you-ve-wasted-years-of-your-life","published_at":"2026-05-09T07:00:00+00:00","page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/the-crappy-childhood-fairy-podcast-with-anna-runkle-5678290/feeling-you-ve-wasted-years-of-your-life","show_page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/the-crappy-childhood-fairy-podcast-with-anna-runkle-5678290","url":"https://courses.crappychildhoodfairy.com/podcasts/the-crappy-childhood-fairy-podcast-with-anna-runkle/episodes/2149202527","audio_url":"https://app.kajabi.com/podcasts/medias/2149202527.mp3","summary":"Trauma-induced survival mode can leave you feeling as though your life has already passed you by. 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