{"podcast":{"title":"The Buoyant Leader","slug":"the-buoyant-leader-7043386","podcast_index_feed_id":7043386,"rss_url":"https://feeds.captivate.fm/the-buoyant-leader/","website_url":"https://howiejacobson.com","image_url":"https://artwork.captivate.fm/74889fea-b10d-4483-9baa-b8b0b2423282/bl-ss-sq.png","author":"Dr Howie Jacobson","episode_count":67,"summary":"The audio version of Dr Howie Jacobson's weekly newsletter.","last_synced_at":"2026-06-15T14:18:12.065220+00:00","page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/the-buoyant-leader-7043386"},"episode":{"title":"Feeling Like a Fraud","slug":"feeling-like-a-fraud","published_at":"2026-05-19T06:00:00+00:00","page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/the-buoyant-leader-7043386/feeling-like-a-fraud","show_page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/the-buoyant-leader-7043386","url":"https://howiejacobson.india-explore.in/captivate-podcast/feeling-like-a-fraud","audio_url":"https://episodes.captivate.fm/episode/875460e2-f845-45b9-b17f-82db9b0a238d.mp3","summary":"Fraud Today I feel like a fraud. On the one hand, it’s Monday, and time to draft this week’s Buoyant Leader newsletter. On the other hand, I’m feeling decidedly non-buoyant: sluggish, sad, scared, and stuck. I open my note-taking app and looked through all the newsletter ideas — and I got pissed off at my past self for offering all this smug advice that I really need right now. Because when you’re not buoyant, the last thing you want is someone telling you how to right yourself. Which is a useful thing for future me to remember when I’m out of my funk and feeling helpful again. But I don’t want to abandon this feeling of fraudulence that quickly. I want to twist on this hook for a few more paragraphs, in case you might also have a touch of “who the hell am I to…?” now and again. Fraudulence The fraudulence has two parts to it. First, I’m the guy who has supposedly figured this stuff out, and here I am again. I feel like calling some coaching clients and paying them to coach me today. And I know, conceptually, that having off-days doesn’t disqualify me from — well, from anything really, except maybe surgery or air traffic control. But it’s hard, and frankly annoying, when the advice and empathy and perspective I can dole out like the world’s best bartender falls so flat to my own ears. Probably it’s an example of why bootstrapping isn’t a thing — while self-coaching can help with surface issues, in order to lift spirits we need each other. But I wouldn’t want my clients to see me this way, and if I had a call this afternoon I’d fake energy and charm and positivity. The second part of the fraudulence is the old refrain, Do As I Say And Not As I Do. Because, honestly, this funk was pretty preventable. I’ve neglected my morning practice for a couple of weeks now. I’ve avoi…","meta_description":"Fraud Today I feel like a fraud. On the one hand, it’s Monday, and time to draft this week’s Buoyant Leader newsletter. On the other hand, I’m feeling dec…","key_points":[],"chapters":[],"topics":[],"duration_seconds":403,"processing_state":"not_requested","actions":[{"name":"request_transcript","method":"POST","url":"https://stenobird.com/v1/public/podcasts/the-buoyant-leader-7043386/episodes/feeling-like-a-fraud/transcription-requests","description":"Idempotently request low-priority transcript generation for this episode."},{"name":"read_markdown","method":"GET","url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/the-buoyant-leader-7043386/feeling-like-a-fraud.md","description":"Read the agent-friendly Markdown representation of this episode resource."}]}}