{"podcast":{"title":"Mindfully Disruptive","slug":"mindfully-disruptive-7092517","podcast_index_feed_id":7092517,"rss_url":"https://feeds.transistor.fm/mindfully-disruptive","website_url":null,"image_url":"https://img.transistorcdn.com/n5_zoNHwGInqChtQCeMGqRjxSMfdmNQ2xdtHGL9w44U/rs:fill:0:0:1/w:1400/h:1400/q:60/mb:500000/aHR0cHM6Ly9pbWct/dXBsb2FkLXByb2R1/Y3Rpb24udHJhbnNp/c3Rvci5mbS9kMWZh/YzBlMTNhMDg0MWVl/MzExZTRkNzVkOTc5/MGYxNS5wbmc.jpg","author":"Patricia Rundblade","episode_count":80,"summary":"Mindfully Disruptive unfiltered. unapologetic. unignorable. Mindfully Disruptive is the podcast for the woman who has outgrown the life she built — and is finally ready to build the one that she has been craving. If you’ve ever whispered to yourself, How did I get here… and why doesn’t my life fit anymore? Who am I now? Why does everything feel different? — pull up a chair, friend. You’re in the right place. This show is for women moving through midlife — and yes, through perimenopause and menopause — as the initiation it truly is. Not as an ending; as a remembering - a return - a becoming. Together, we explore the exhaustion beneath the exhaustion: the draining of your energy, the control used in order to feel safe, the ways we continually hand our power away, and the ancestral burdens we continue to carry rent-free in our minds, hearts, and bodies. Through tools like Human Design, Gene Keys, creative art practices, ancestral medicine, divination, and shamanic wisdom, we explore what it means to reclaim your energy, your identity, and your self-leadership. On your own terms. In your own timing. In your own design. Each week, we dive into Human Design and Gene Keys teachings that…","last_synced_at":"2026-07-23T06:19:41.522307+00:00","page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/mindfully-disruptive-7092517"},"episode":{"title":"S5: Episode 65 - The Exhaustion Beyond the Exhaustion: When the body Stops Negotiating","slug":"s5-episode-65-the-exhaustion-beyond-the-exhaustion-when-the-body-stops-negotiating","published_at":"2026-03-20T19:02:50+00:00","page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/mindfully-disruptive-7092517/s5-episode-65-the-exhaustion-beyond-the-exhaustion-when-the-body-stops-negotiating","show_page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/mindfully-disruptive-7092517","url":"https://mindfullydisruptivethepodcast.transistor.fm/65","audio_url":"https://media.transistor.fm/304fa048/3fe9de88.mp3","summary":"ABOUT THIS EPISODE There's the exhaustion everyone can see. And then there's the other one. The one that doesn't lift after a full night's sleep. The one that's been there so long you stopped noticing it. The one living quietly underneath everything you hold, everything you do, everyone you show up for. In this episode Patricia gets personal — raw and unfiltered — about the exhaustion that lives beyond the surface. The kind that doesn't come from your schedule. The kind that comes from something older. Long-held emotions stored in the body. Survival patterns learned so early they became invisible. Parts of yourself set aside so consistently you forgot they existed. She talks about what it looks like to be highly functional and deeply depleted at the same time — praised for reliability, celebrated for capacity, while something underneath quietly unravels. And she shares her own moment — a panic attack on a highway returning to a teaching job at the Grand Canyon — when her body finally stopped negotiating and insisted something had to change. This episode is for the woman who has been holding it together so well that nobody — including herself — has noticed what it's costing her. WHAT WE COVER — The difference between surface exhaustion and the deeper depletion that rest can't touch — and why they require completely different approaches. — How high-functioning women can be simultaneously praised for their capacity and quietly disappearing inside it. — What a panic attack on a highway taught Patricia about misalignment, fight-or-flight, and what happens when the body stops waiting to be heard. — Why healing this kind of exhaustion requires the body, the breath, and expression — not more strategy, more optimization, or more willpower. — How emotions that never got to finis…","meta_description":"ABOUT THIS EPISODE There's the exhaustion everyone can see. And then there's the other one. The one that doesn't lift after a full night's sleep. 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