{"podcast":{"title":"Make Your Damn Bed","slug":"make-your-damn-bed-1372987","podcast_index_feed_id":1372987,"rss_url":"https://feeds.acast.com/public/shows/6152264dc28ad2001383af42","website_url":"https://www.makeyourdamnbedpodcast.com","image_url":"https://assets.pippa.io/shows/6152264dc28ad2001383af42/1653268330489-302af9cc8ab6429897ac2b239aed39d6.jpeg","author":"Julie Merica","episode_count":1822,"summary":"@MYDBpodcast is a bite sized, real talk, daily motivation podcast to play while you make your bed every morning. Build momentum - better your life. Each episode is around 10 minutes and intended to encourage, motivate, and inspire you to get out of bed - so you can start making it! Julie Merica and Make Your Damn Bed Podcast is not intended or implied to be a substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis or treatment. All content, including text, graphics, images and information, is for general information purposes only. This content is presented on an \"as-is\" basis. Support this show http://supporter.acast.com/make-your-damn-bed . Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.","last_synced_at":"2026-07-14T14:18:32.146541+00:00","page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/make-your-damn-bed-1372987"},"episode":{"title":"my tea is scalding: final chapter (the wedding)","slug":"my-tea-is-scalding-final-chapter-the-wedding","published_at":"2026-06-18T04:01:00+00:00","page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/make-your-damn-bed-1372987/my-tea-is-scalding-final-chapter-the-wedding","show_page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/make-your-damn-bed-1372987","url":"https://shows.acast.com/make-your-damn-bed/episodes/my-tea-is-scalding-final-chapter-the-wedding","audio_url":"https://sphinx.acast.com/p/open/s/6152264dc28ad2001383af42/e/6a31d41ac26a46aaa58ca6ba/media.mp3","summary":"He went to a wedding without me. He lied about my dad being sick when people asked about me. He was also regularly asking a woman from work if he could come meet up with her before shifts and after shifts. He had said \"I love you\" to another woman he sent thousands to for photos. I was devastated. And I spiraled. I hit rock bottom. So I spent a week drilling in. Leaning into the horrors and demons. I got some closure but all the answers in the world will never be enough. You can't explain a chaotic choice like cheating or betrayal. But it has reminded me that I'm responsible for protecting my spark. He took it and snuffed it out, but I am fully capable of relighting it. I will keep it safe myself, and never trust anyone to be responsible for it again. My goal is to not hate him. And as far as I can tell, it's his goal too. I still waffle between anger/hatred/contempt/ick to despair/fear/unworthiness/shame/sadness and complete confusion/betrayal/alarm at the unpredictability of humans. But for now, I'm honoring the part of me that wants to save myself. I'm relighting my spark. I'm nurturing myself with compassion and grace and patience I couldn't find in someone else. And that has to be enough for now. I shouldn't have needed to hit rock bottom to remember to take care of myself, and I'll never let myself get to that point again. Read Julie's Medium Blog . Support JULIE (and the show!) Support + get some bonus stuff over on PATREON . Get an occasional personal email from me: www.makeyourdamnbedpodcast.com Tune in on INSTAGRAM AND YOUTUBE or TIKTOK . Info on War Tax Resistance. Donate to the Palestinian Children's Relief Fund and the Sudan Relief Fund The opinions expressed by Julie Merica and Make Your Damn Bed Podcast are intended for entertainment purposes only. Make…","meta_description":"He went to a wedding without me. He lied about my dad being sick when people asked about me. He was also regularly asking a woman from work if he could co…","key_points":[],"chapters":[],"topics":[],"duration_seconds":830,"processing_state":"not_requested","actions":[{"name":"request_transcript","method":"POST","url":"https://stenobird.com/v1/public/podcasts/make-your-damn-bed-1372987/episodes/my-tea-is-scalding-final-chapter-the-wedding/transcription-requests","description":"Idempotently request low-priority transcript generation for this episode."},{"name":"read_markdown","method":"GET","url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/make-your-damn-bed-1372987/my-tea-is-scalding-final-chapter-the-wedding.md","description":"Read the agent-friendly Markdown representation of this episode resource."}]}}