{"podcast":{"title":"Losing a Child: Always Andy's Mom","slug":"losing-a-child-always-andy-s-mom-252545","podcast_index_feed_id":252545,"rss_url":"https://andysmom.libsyn.com/rss","website_url":"http://andysmom.com","image_url":"https://static.libsyn.com/p/assets/e/e/8/9/ee898b2cff452f8ee55e3c100dce7605/UPDATEDalwaysandysmom.jpg","author":"Marcy Larson, MD","episode_count":363,"summary":"When pediatrician mom of three, Marcy Larson's 14 yo son, Andy, was killed in a car accident in 2018, she felt like her life was over. In many ways, that life was over, and a new one forced to begin in its place. Come alongside her as she works through this journey of healing. She discusses grief and child loss with other grieving parents and those who work to help them in their grief. This podcast is for grieving parents and well as those who support them.","last_synced_at":"2026-09-04T00:22:05.651956+00:00","page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/losing-a-child-always-andy-s-mom-252545"},"episode":{"title":"Episode 356: The Broken Heart Stays Open - Noah's Dad","slug":"episode-356-the-broken-heart-stays-open-noah-s-dad","published_at":"2026-07-09T12:39:00+00:00","page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/losing-a-child-always-andy-s-mom-252545/episode-356-the-broken-heart-stays-open-noah-s-dad","show_page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/losing-a-child-always-andy-s-mom-252545","url":"https://andysmom.libsyn.com/episode-356-the-broken-heart-stays-open-noahs-dad","audio_url":"https://traffic.libsyn.com/secure/andysmom/356_-_Noahs_Dad_-_Final.mp3?dest-id=1436963","summary":"Bryan carried the sadness. That was his decision. Not the devastation, not the incapacitation, but the sadness. A conscious, daily choice to let his broken heart stay open rather than rebuild the walls around it. And in doing so, he discovered something he did not expect. The broken heart made him better. Noah was Bryan's son, born in 1987, a boy of rare and tender empathy who greeted his father every morning before work and asked, at ten years old, to attend the funeral of a classmate's father because he already knew, somehow, how to be present in someone else's pain. He grew into a young man full of promise, studying finance and Chinese, warm and funny and deeply loved. And then, quietly, the opioid crisis found him. He once told his father that the first time he took one of those drugs, it was the first time in his life he had ever felt completely free of anxiety. What followed were years of loving a child through addiction. Rehab. Sobriety. Relapse. Bryan eventually had to fire his own son from the company he ran. He and his wife told Noah they could no longer pay his rent, that they would support his recovery but not his destruction. Noah understood. He said a friend would drive him to rehab. The call from rehab never came. Bryan had the police do a welfare check. Noah was gone. In the years since, Bryan made a choice. He would not rebuild what grief had torn down. He would stay open, stay soft, stay reachable by other people's suffering. Because he had come to understand that as long as we tell ourselves we are safe, as long as we build the little narratives that say the worst cannot happen to us, we create invisible walls between ourselves and everyone around us who is hurting. Grief demolished those walls. And in their rubble, something beautiful grew. One even…","meta_description":"Bryan carried the sadness. That was his decision. Not the devastation, not the incapacitation, but the sadness. A conscious, daily choice to let his broke…","key_points":[],"chapters":[],"topics":[],"duration_seconds":3445,"processing_state":"not_requested","actions":[{"name":"request_transcript","method":"POST","url":"https://stenobird.com/v1/public/podcasts/losing-a-child-always-andy-s-mom-252545/episodes/episode-356-the-broken-heart-stays-open-noah-s-dad/transcription-requests","description":"Idempotently request low-priority transcript generation for this episode."},{"name":"read_markdown","method":"GET","url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/losing-a-child-always-andy-s-mom-252545/episode-356-the-broken-heart-stays-open-noah-s-dad.md","description":"Read the agent-friendly Markdown representation of this episode resource."}]}}