{"podcast":{"title":"Jen's Cuts","slug":"jen-s-cuts-6736333","podcast_index_feed_id":6736333,"rss_url":"https://api.substack.com/feed/podcast/36048.rss","website_url":"https://jenscuts.substack.com/podcast","image_url":"https://substackcdn.com/feed/podcast/36048/9a46f256d8c9381457381bf9b7856516.jpg","author":"Jen Cuts","episode_count":25,"summary":"I talk a lot, and I think even more. One time a guy at a bar told me I think too much after he fuckin’ walked up and asked me what I was thinking about, can you believe it?","last_synced_at":null,"page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/jen-s-cuts-6736333"},"episode":{"title":"A Brief on Grief","slug":"a-brief-on-grief","published_at":"2024-11-10T21:41:12+00:00","page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/jen-s-cuts-6736333/a-brief-on-grief","show_page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/jen-s-cuts-6736333","url":"https://jenscuts.substack.com/p/a-brief-on-grief","audio_url":"https://api.substack.com/feed/podcast/151469851/a3884618de6bf945645b2573c35a5063.mp3","summary":"I recently realized that somebody I briefly dated was trying to be better than me at my gig. For example, as a color specialist, he used to say that he saw color better than me, which I accepted, not because I believed him, but because I know that's not true. I know that men don't see color as well as women. Biologically, women see color better and most men have a blue level colorblindness that they aren't even aware of. So many times men will tell me that my hair is blue, and it is expressly not blue. That same guy, (it is so not blue) that I dated briefly— my other gig is a writer. He told me he was working on a book, that he had a book deal, and I said, okay , because I don't give a f**k about writing books. I never did, because everybody wants to write a book and that's not the kind of stuff I write. Like, obviously, I write personal essays, but really this is more of a way for me to talk about myself a lot and exercise my narcissism in a healthy and artistic manner, but I never wanted to write a book. It wasn't my gig. So when he did that, I was like, okay . And I only realized recently, that the reason he ever said that he was writing a book, which was quickly dropped from his repertoire, the only reason that he ever said he was writing a book is because he thought that it would make me feel bad that I wasn't. And this is probably the second or third time in my life that I have been upset that somebody was trying to upset me and they didn't even know how. Like, I actually cried and said, you don't even know me well enough to know what would hurt my feelings. It's like when men try to tell me that I'm fat, I say, I know , and then they don't say anything else because they can't, because it wasn't their plan that I would just say, okay . One time I cried to a guy w…","meta_description":"I recently realized that somebody I briefly dated was trying to be better than me at my gig. For example, as a color specialist, he used to say that he sa…","key_points":[],"chapters":[],"topics":[],"duration_seconds":592,"processing_state":"not_requested","actions":[{"name":"request_transcript","method":"POST","url":"https://stenobird.com/v1/public/podcasts/jen-s-cuts-6736333/episodes/a-brief-on-grief/transcription-requests","description":"Idempotently request low-priority transcript generation for this episode."},{"name":"read_markdown","method":"GET","url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/jen-s-cuts-6736333/a-brief-on-grief.md","description":"Read the agent-friendly Markdown representation of this episode resource."}]}}