{"podcast":{"title":"H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain Ends","slug":"h-o-p-e-hang-on-pain-ends-7671656","podcast_index_feed_id":7671656,"rss_url":"https://media.rss.com/hang-on-pain-ends/feed.xml","website_url":"https://rss.com/podcasts/hang-on-pain-ends","image_url":"https://media.rss.com/hang-on-pain-ends/20260125_050158_ac76627d7982080530c4b1d9d57ad4ff.png","author":"Alana Michaels","episode_count":126,"summary":"This podcast was originally started at the end of January 2026 ... after the sudden death of my Father ... then almost losing my mother 6 weeks later ... I decided I needed the first break of my lifetime, and I took a leave from my job .... and started a podcast. It started as a platform to share my story with Bipolar Disorder.... and then started turning into journal-style recordings of many experiences from my past, not only to do with my mental illness, but including so many other things with a lot of laughter and tears as I have been told my story-telling is beyond compare. Up until a few weeks ago, the podcast was going in one direction ... well, actually, numerous directions... but I thought I knew exactly where I was and where I would end up. Turns out.... after a bipolar depressive crash in early June .... I realized the entire podcast up until then ... was recorded in something called a \"Quiet Hypomanic\" episode of Bipolar Disorder. I was shocked, embarrassed, mortified ... and I almost deleted this entire thing, I could not even stomach the idea of listening back to even ONE episode .... But... Here I am. The dust has settled a bit .... I am not in that deep dark suicida…","last_synced_at":"2026-07-02T00:20:04.923907+00:00","page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/h-o-p-e-hang-on-pain-ends-7671656"},"episode":{"title":"Thoughts and Feelings at 3AM.","slug":"thoughts-and-feelings-at-3am","published_at":"2026-02-23T13:57:55+00:00","page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/h-o-p-e-hang-on-pain-ends-7671656/thoughts-and-feelings-at-3am","show_page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/h-o-p-e-hang-on-pain-ends-7671656","url":"https://rss.com/podcasts/hang-on-pain-ends/2572107","audio_url":"https://content.rss.com/episodes/368489/2572107/hang-on-pain-ends/2026_02_23_13_57_24_dfe126eb-f9bc-4bd8-895b-59c28b38327c.mp3","summary":"Got Woken up between 2am and 3am ... I was exhausted and groggy (I apologize for the Yawning). But I knew I had something to say ... I didn't realize it was going to be so long ... but I take myself on a late night (or early morning) journey ... from My Dad's sudden Death .... and then My Mom's almost death ... and how I ended up choosing to finally take a BREAK ... and choose myself and my own health for the first time in my entire life. My Fever was breaking (in real time) ... I was coming out of the dense fog, that had been clouding EVERYTHING ... as I relistened to this on... I SWEAR there are moments and parts that I do NOT remember coming out of me .... but either way, everything recorded in this episode, was supposed to be said ... and is needed to be HEARD (by myself in addition to all of my listeners). Love, Alana.","meta_description":"Got Woken up between 2am and 3am ... I was exhausted and groggy (I apologize for the Yawning). But I knew I had something to say ... I didn't realize it w…","key_points":[],"chapters":[],"topics":[],"duration_seconds":3869,"processing_state":"not_requested","actions":[{"name":"request_transcript","method":"POST","url":"https://stenobird.com/v1/public/podcasts/h-o-p-e-hang-on-pain-ends-7671656/episodes/thoughts-and-feelings-at-3am/transcription-requests","description":"Idempotently request low-priority transcript generation for this episode."},{"name":"read_markdown","method":"GET","url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/h-o-p-e-hang-on-pain-ends-7671656/thoughts-and-feelings-at-3am.md","description":"Read the agent-friendly Markdown representation of this episode resource."}]}}