{"podcast":{"title":"H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain Ends","slug":"h-o-p-e-hang-on-pain-ends-7671656","podcast_index_feed_id":7671656,"rss_url":"https://media.rss.com/hang-on-pain-ends/feed.xml","website_url":"https://rss.com/podcasts/hang-on-pain-ends","image_url":"https://media.rss.com/hang-on-pain-ends/20260125_050158_ac76627d7982080530c4b1d9d57ad4ff.png","author":"Alana Michaels","episode_count":126,"summary":"This podcast was originally started at the end of January 2026 ... after the sudden death of my Father ... then almost losing my mother 6 weeks later ... I decided I needed the first break of my lifetime, and I took a leave from my job .... and started a podcast. It started as a platform to share my story with Bipolar Disorder.... and then started turning into journal-style recordings of many experiences from my past, not only to do with my mental illness, but including so many other things with a lot of laughter and tears as I have been told my story-telling is beyond compare. Up until a few weeks ago, the podcast was going in one direction ... well, actually, numerous directions... but I thought I knew exactly where I was and where I would end up. Turns out.... after a bipolar depressive crash in early June .... I realized the entire podcast up until then ... was recorded in something called a \"Quiet Hypomanic\" episode of Bipolar Disorder. I was shocked, embarrassed, mortified ... and I almost deleted this entire thing, I could not even stomach the idea of listening back to even ONE episode .... But... Here I am. The dust has settled a bit .... I am not in that deep dark suicida…","last_synced_at":"2026-07-02T00:20:04.923907+00:00","page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/h-o-p-e-hang-on-pain-ends-7671656"},"episode":{"title":"First Date ALERT!!!!","slug":"first-date-alert","published_at":"2026-03-01T13:18:00+00:00","page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/h-o-p-e-hang-on-pain-ends-7671656/first-date-alert","show_page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/h-o-p-e-hang-on-pain-ends-7671656","url":"https://rss.com/podcasts/hang-on-pain-ends/2587746","audio_url":"https://content.rss.com/episodes/368489/2587746/hang-on-pain-ends/2026_02_27_21_14_05_ff4fbfe8-44b0-4798-ac6f-25fde3bcdaaa.mp3","summary":"This one documents my very first date ... not only in a very LONG time... but also my first date without my Dad here on Earth with me. Although I did bring him with me (no, I did not pull out the mini earn with my dad's ashes once they dropped off the bread) - although, I am sure my Dad would have loved that. lol but I had Dad's prayer card in my purse. However ... it was pretty clear the minute I saw this man, I didn't need the prayer card ... because my dad hand-picked this guy, I mean, some of the obvious things ... the height, the green eyes, him being a Virgo, him being a \"girl dad\" ... yes. BUT... the sincerity, the genuine and protective energy that I felt from him ... I knew in that moment, I felt SAFE. I felt I was on a date with a \"grown up\", that has a heart, and a sense of humor, ... oh yeah, one more thing .... He happens to have Bipolar Disorder. Yes, you read that correctly. Sooooooo .... only Time Will Tell .... But I am SO excited, because my Dad was able to do what I think deep down he wanted to be even more than a CPA ... a \"Matchmaker\"!! Love you Dad.... thank you for sending me a good one .... Who knows .... perhaps my Dad will REALLY pull a twist on all of us .... and I will be able to look back on Today ... with the sunshine beams gleaming off the soft white snow... as I drove back from a date unlike all the rest ... and I can say to myself . ..\"I can't believe that was my LAST First Date.\" Can't wait to find out what happens next!!!","meta_description":"This one documents my very first date ... not only in a very LONG time... but also my first date without my Dad here on Earth with me. Although I did brin…","key_points":[],"chapters":[],"topics":[],"duration_seconds":1033,"processing_state":"not_requested","actions":[{"name":"request_transcript","method":"POST","url":"https://stenobird.com/v1/public/podcasts/h-o-p-e-hang-on-pain-ends-7671656/episodes/first-date-alert/transcription-requests","description":"Idempotently request low-priority transcript generation for this episode."},{"name":"read_markdown","method":"GET","url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/h-o-p-e-hang-on-pain-ends-7671656/first-date-alert.md","description":"Read the agent-friendly Markdown representation of this episode resource."}]}}