{"podcast":{"title":"H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain Ends","slug":"h-o-p-e-hang-on-pain-ends-7671656","podcast_index_feed_id":7671656,"rss_url":"https://media.rss.com/hang-on-pain-ends/feed.xml","website_url":"https://rss.com/podcasts/hang-on-pain-ends","image_url":"https://media.rss.com/hang-on-pain-ends/20260125_050158_ac76627d7982080530c4b1d9d57ad4ff.png","author":"Alana Michaels","episode_count":126,"summary":"This podcast was originally started at the end of January 2026 ... after the sudden death of my Father ... then almost losing my mother 6 weeks later ... I decided I needed the first break of my lifetime, and I took a leave from my job .... and started a podcast. It started as a platform to share my story with Bipolar Disorder.... and then started turning into journal-style recordings of many experiences from my past, not only to do with my mental illness, but including so many other things with a lot of laughter and tears as I have been told my story-telling is beyond compare. Up until a few weeks ago, the podcast was going in one direction ... well, actually, numerous directions... but I thought I knew exactly where I was and where I would end up. Turns out.... after a bipolar depressive crash in early June .... I realized the entire podcast up until then ... was recorded in something called a \"Quiet Hypomanic\" episode of Bipolar Disorder. I was shocked, embarrassed, mortified ... and I almost deleted this entire thing, I could not even stomach the idea of listening back to even ONE episode .... But... Here I am. The dust has settled a bit .... I am not in that deep dark suicida…","last_synced_at":"2026-07-02T00:20:04.923907+00:00","page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/h-o-p-e-hang-on-pain-ends-7671656"},"episode":{"title":"Drowning In a Glazed Donut!","slug":"drowning-in-a-glazed-donut","published_at":"2026-04-07T12:18:10+00:00","page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/h-o-p-e-hang-on-pain-ends-7671656/drowning-in-a-glazed-donut","show_page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/h-o-p-e-hang-on-pain-ends-7671656","url":"https://rss.com/podcasts/hang-on-pain-ends/2696366","audio_url":"https://content.rss.com/episodes/368489/2696366/hang-on-pain-ends/2026_04_07_12_16_49_b156b0c7-0d4a-4a26-9cb7-da738e1ee185.mp3","summary":"You have to listen to this one to Understand the title! It's recorded after a really \"bad\" night of missing my Dad ... should we really call these moments \"bad\" though? I am thinking of that in this moment ... these moments, and they are usually not much more than fleeting... are perhaps the \"winks from Earth\" that we send to our loved ones in the clouds? Anyway ... I compare the feeling of the waves of grief and having that feeling of drowning... the time i LITERALLY almost drowned in a Glazed Donut! SO... you might cry ... but I promise you will also Laugh ... and never forget the story I am about to tell ... Thank you for listening everyone. With Love Always, Alana","meta_description":"You have to listen to this one to Understand the title! It's recorded after a really \"bad\" night of missing my Dad ... should we really call these moments…","key_points":[],"chapters":[],"topics":[],"duration_seconds":1721,"processing_state":"not_requested","actions":[{"name":"request_transcript","method":"POST","url":"https://stenobird.com/v1/public/podcasts/h-o-p-e-hang-on-pain-ends-7671656/episodes/drowning-in-a-glazed-donut/transcription-requests","description":"Idempotently request low-priority transcript generation for this episode."},{"name":"read_markdown","method":"GET","url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/h-o-p-e-hang-on-pain-ends-7671656/drowning-in-a-glazed-donut.md","description":"Read the agent-friendly Markdown representation of this episode resource."}]}}