{"podcast":{"title":"H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain Ends","slug":"h-o-p-e-hang-on-pain-ends-7671656","podcast_index_feed_id":7671656,"rss_url":"https://media.rss.com/hang-on-pain-ends/feed.xml","website_url":"https://rss.com/podcasts/hang-on-pain-ends","image_url":"https://media.rss.com/hang-on-pain-ends/20260125_050158_ac76627d7982080530c4b1d9d57ad4ff.png","author":"Alana Michaels","episode_count":126,"summary":"This podcast was originally started at the end of January 2026 ... after the sudden death of my Father ... then almost losing my mother 6 weeks later ... I decided I needed the first break of my lifetime, and I took a leave from my job .... and started a podcast. It started as a platform to share my story with Bipolar Disorder.... and then started turning into journal-style recordings of many experiences from my past, not only to do with my mental illness, but including so many other things with a lot of laughter and tears as I have been told my story-telling is beyond compare. Up until a few weeks ago, the podcast was going in one direction ... well, actually, numerous directions... but I thought I knew exactly where I was and where I would end up. Turns out.... after a bipolar depressive crash in early June .... I realized the entire podcast up until then ... was recorded in something called a \"Quiet Hypomanic\" episode of Bipolar Disorder. I was shocked, embarrassed, mortified ... and I almost deleted this entire thing, I could not even stomach the idea of listening back to even ONE episode .... But... Here I am. The dust has settled a bit .... I am not in that deep dark suicida…","last_synced_at":"2026-07-02T00:20:04.923907+00:00","page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/h-o-p-e-hang-on-pain-ends-7671656"},"episode":{"title":"\"Darling I'm a Nightmare Dressed Like a Daydream.\"","slug":"darling-i-m-a-nightmare-dressed-like-a-daydream","published_at":"2026-03-20T14:41:15+00:00","page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/h-o-p-e-hang-on-pain-ends-7671656/darling-i-m-a-nightmare-dressed-like-a-daydream","show_page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/h-o-p-e-hang-on-pain-ends-7671656","url":"https://rss.com/podcasts/hang-on-pain-ends/2645453","audio_url":"https://content.rss.com/episodes/368489/2645453/hang-on-pain-ends/2026_03_20_14_41_10_74b2a83b-924c-4a2e-8e72-83b058f3fd34.mp3","summary":"This one was inspired by my ALL-TIME lyric from the magical Taylor Swift in her song Blank Space ... by the very end of this one ... I come to realize, how accurate that line actually was to myself at one time ... wow wow wow. I discuss how Taylor swift has spoken about how her most creative times come in the middle of the night ... and she records the start of her song idea into her phone ... in a voice note. Well... HELLO! Voice notes are now my life ... whether it be sending them to friends/family instead of a generic (most of the time misconstrued text) OR .. how I record my episodes for HOPE - The Podcast! Lastly - Journaling is a big part of this episode! Journaling has always been a huge part of my life... except for the last 6-7 years (66666-7777777) lol. I touch on a few different things in this entry ... (pardon the pun) ... and by the end I give some tips on how YOU can start journaling TODAY (involves a possible visit to the Dollar Tree but it will be worth it). I end by inviting my listeners to possibly use some of my \"Entries and Episodes\" on HOPE as a prompt for YOUR next Journal entry ... Happy Listening... and HAPPY WRITING! Love, Alana.","meta_description":"This one was inspired by my ALL-TIME lyric from the magical Taylor Swift in her song Blank Space ... by the very end of this one ... I come to realize, ho…","key_points":[],"chapters":[],"topics":[],"duration_seconds":1259,"processing_state":"not_requested","actions":[{"name":"request_transcript","method":"POST","url":"https://stenobird.com/v1/public/podcasts/h-o-p-e-hang-on-pain-ends-7671656/episodes/darling-i-m-a-nightmare-dressed-like-a-daydream/transcription-requests","description":"Idempotently request low-priority transcript generation for this episode."},{"name":"read_markdown","method":"GET","url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/h-o-p-e-hang-on-pain-ends-7671656/darling-i-m-a-nightmare-dressed-like-a-daydream.md","description":"Read the agent-friendly Markdown representation of this episode resource."}]}}