{"podcast":{"title":"Different, Not Broken","slug":"different-not-broken-7281363","podcast_index_feed_id":7281363,"rss_url":"https://feeds.captivate.fm/different-not-broken/","website_url":"https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com","image_url":"https://artwork.captivate.fm/0387d1ce-6b9b-4cca-b6e8-776de97c3f11/6XCIStyYqXIWc3Zw6GTqXkf1.jpg","author":"Lauren \"L2\" Howard","episode_count":69,"summary":"You’ve spent your whole life feeling like something’s wrong with you. Here’s a radical thought: what if you’re not broken - just different? Welcome to Different, Not Broken, the no-filter, emotionally intelligent, occasionally sweary podcast that challenges the idea that we all have to fit inside neat little boxes to be acceptable. Hosted by L2 (aka Lauren Howard), this show dives into the real, raw and ridiculous sides of being neurodivergent, introverted, chronically underestimated - and still completely worthy. Expect deeply honest conversations about identity, neurodivergence, gender, work, grief, anxiety and everything in between. There’ll be tears, dead dad jokes, side quests, and a whole lot of swearing. If you are tired of pretending to be someone you’re not, this space is for you. Come for the chaos. Stay for the catharsis. Linger for the dead Dad jokes.","last_synced_at":null,"page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/different-not-broken-7281363"},"episode":{"title":"I Put on Makeup. That's The Big Win.","slug":"i-put-on-makeup-that-s-the-big-win","published_at":"2026-04-15T10:00:00+00:00","page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/different-not-broken-7281363/i-put-on-makeup-that-s-the-big-win","show_page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/different-not-broken-7281363","url":"https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/episode/i-put-on-makeup-thats-the-big-win","audio_url":"https://episodes.captivate.fm/episode/ce715c42-3e06-4e17-a7a0-ad0bc95ae618.mp3","summary":"We're back. I put on makeup today. Seriously, that's where we are right now. I took a break — a self-imposed silent hiatus you probably didn't know about, because I had a backlog and I'm nothing if not someone who runs her mouth into a microphone first and asks questions later. But the break is over, and I was not ready to come back today. I was very, very not ready. And yet here we are, because I can do things scared, and apparently that includes walking downstairs and getting in front of the microphone when all I wanted was my best friend. (My kids confirmed my best friend is my bed. They weren't wrong.) In this episode, I'm talking about: — Odin, my 175-pound Great Dane who has exactly one person in this house and it is not me. Until he got scared. Then it was very much me. — A listener question from Talia in Berkeley about how you grieve versions of yourself you never got to become — the careers, the relationships, the risks you didn't take. — My dad's passing in 2016 and what happened in the four months after: every service line that was paying our business's bills disappeared. Every. Single. One. The universe was done with that chapter before I was. This episode is 18 minutes. It's also a little unplanned, a little raw, and exactly what it needs to be. Come back with me. CHAPTERS: 00:00 — War Paint On: We're Back (Armed with Makeup) 01:30 — What Counts as a Break When Your Brain Never Stops 02:09 — Content Brain Doesn't Take Vacations 02:50 — I Was Not Ready (But Here Anyway) 05:44 — Odin the 175-Pound Great Dane Who Only Loves Me in Crisis 09:02 — I'm the Safe Parent, Apparently 09:55 — What It's Actually Like Having Giant Dogs 12:24 — Small Talk: Grieving the Life You Didn't Live Mentioned in this episode: Join Quirky","meta_description":"We're back. I put on makeup today. Seriously, that's where we are right now. I took a break — a self-imposed silent hiatus you probably didn't know about,…","key_points":[],"chapters":[],"topics":[],"duration_seconds":1191,"processing_state":"not_requested","actions":[{"name":"request_transcript","method":"POST","url":"https://stenobird.com/v1/public/podcasts/different-not-broken-7281363/episodes/i-put-on-makeup-that-s-the-big-win/transcription-requests","description":"Idempotently request low-priority transcript generation for this episode."},{"name":"read_markdown","method":"GET","url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/different-not-broken-7281363/i-put-on-makeup-that-s-the-big-win.md","description":"Read the agent-friendly Markdown representation of this episode resource."}]}}