{"podcast":{"title":"Danger, Vicious Dog","slug":"danger-vicious-dog-7683978","podcast_index_feed_id":7683978,"rss_url":"https://anchor.fm/s/10bfde498/podcast/rss","website_url":"https://testtubebaby.ca","image_url":"https://d3t3ozftmdmh3i.cloudfront.net/staging/podcast_uploaded_nologo/44861558/44861558-1775105575163-855c199ca2b6a.jpg","author":"TestTubeBaby","episode_count":94,"summary":"Started updating my bio Dec 31, 2023. Accidentally wrote four autofiction books. Slid from narrative into monologue—not stream-of-consciousness, more like speech-speed meaning performance. Trained my voice into AI, produced a shit-ton of pieces. Had too many. Needed a place to dump them. Saw a sign that said “Beware, Vicious Dog!” Misread it. Named the podcast Danger, Vicious Dog. Didn’t fix it. Just kept going. Queer. Cosmic. Sarcastic. Cheap. Accidentally committed to the bit. Some voice and art is AI... I don't know how I feel about that... so I'm working on figuring it out... how I feel.","last_synced_at":"2026-07-19T20:18:09.153413+00:00","page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/danger-vicious-dog-7683978"},"episode":{"title":"E6: The Other Side; S6: Fleshy Leash-y (Bonus) Or we could just call it Melissa Etheridge","slug":"e6-the-other-side-s6-fleshy-leash-y-bonus-or-we-could-just-call-it-melissa-etheridge","published_at":"2026-05-14T00:37:56+00:00","page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/danger-vicious-dog-7683978/e6-the-other-side-s6-fleshy-leash-y-bonus-or-we-could-just-call-it-melissa-etheridge","show_page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/danger-vicious-dog-7683978","url":"https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/testtubebaby/episodes/E6-The-Other-Side-S6-Fleshy-Leash-y-Bonus-Or-we-could-just-call-it-Melissa-Etheridge-e3jahde","audio_url":"https://anchor.fm/s/10bfde498/podcast/play/119931758/https%3A%2F%2Fd3ctxlq1ktw2nl.cloudfront.net%2Fstaging%2F2026-4-13%2F424074331-44100-2-e5574cf0fe656.m4a","summary":"There are people you never stop following. Not because they were good for you. Not because they loved you well. Not because they stayed. You follow them because they became a hallway in your mind that keeps rearranging itself every time you walk through it. This episode moves through AA basements, sex during the AIDS crisis, artistic compulsion, emotional asymmetry, obsession disguised as devotion, and the humiliation of wanting to be witnessed by someone who prefers you quiet. It’s about the people who become weather systems inside us. And the possibility that some of us only feel alive while standing on “the other side” of something we can never return to. These aren’t moral questions. They’re emotional traps. Please enjoy crawling into them like a raccoon entering a saxophone case. ⸻ You keep answering the phone when someone hurts you because sometimes they sound lonely saying your name. How long can tenderness impersonate hope before you realize it’s just intermittent reinforcement? ⸻ You survived a moment in history that taught your community that desire might kill you. Decades later, your body still treats intimacy like a minefield. When does trauma stop being “the past” if your nervous system still lives there? ⸻ You create things because making things briefly stops you from disappearing. But the people around you care more about whether you ate lunch than the work itself. Who loves you more: the one who understands your art, or the one who interrupts it so you don’t die? ⸻ You meet someone who refuses to rescue you. Instead of leaving, you become obsessed. How much of adulthood is learning that “safe” people feel boring because they don’t activate your oldest injuries? ⸻ At an AA meeting, someone describes a suicide mostly by explaining how hard it was to clean…","meta_description":"There are people you never stop following. Not because they were good for you. Not because they loved you well. Not because they stayed. You follow them b…","key_points":[],"chapters":[],"topics":[],"duration_seconds":1720,"processing_state":"not_requested","actions":[{"name":"request_transcript","method":"POST","url":"https://stenobird.com/v1/public/podcasts/danger-vicious-dog-7683978/episodes/e6-the-other-side-s6-fleshy-leash-y-bonus-or-we-could-just-call-it-melissa-etheridge/transcription-requests","description":"Idempotently request low-priority transcript generation for this episode."},{"name":"read_markdown","method":"GET","url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/danger-vicious-dog-7683978/e6-the-other-side-s6-fleshy-leash-y-bonus-or-we-could-just-call-it-melissa-etheridge.md","description":"Read the agent-friendly Markdown representation of this episode resource."}]}}