{"podcast":{"title":"Chemstories – a podcast about PnP/chemsex (English-language edition)","slug":"chemstories-a-podcast-about-pnp-chemsex-english-language-edition-7696069","podcast_index_feed_id":7696069,"rss_url":"https://feed.podbean.com/chemstories/feed.xml","website_url":"https://chemstories.podbean.com","image_url":"https://pbcdn1.podbean.com/imglogo/image-logo/21666562/Chemstories.jpg","author":"Qollab","episode_count":32,"summary":"Chemstories is a podcast series created by gay, bisexual, queer men, as well as trans and non-binary people who wish to share their experiences related to chemsex*. For Chemstories , we worked for over a year with our editorial board made up of individuals with firsthand experience of chemsex. Three members even became hosts for group discussions in their respective cities—Toronto, Montreal, and Halifax—whom you will meet in the upcoming episodes. From the very beginning, it was essential that this podcast be truly by and for the community. But Chemstories is more than a podcast — it’s the result of a collaborative investigation into the lived realities of chemsex. Together, we set out to explore one central question: \"Why is it important for people with lived experience of PnP/chemsex to tell their stories in their own words?\" This question came directly from our editorial board. They saw it as vital — because too often, people with lived experience have been silenced, stigmatized, or spoken about rather than with. Through Chemstories , they take back that space — to speak for themselves, and to be heard. So thank you for listening. The views expressed in this podcast reflect per…","last_synced_at":null,"page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/chemstories-a-podcast-about-pnp-chemsex-english-language-edition-7696069"},"episode":{"title":"19. YUL Creativity-Pt. 3 — The Trauma Llama","slug":"19-yul-creativity-pt-3-the-trauma-llama","published_at":"2026-04-17T16:19:00+00:00","page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/chemstories-a-podcast-about-pnp-chemsex-english-language-edition-7696069/19-yul-creativity-pt-3-the-trauma-llama","show_page_url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/chemstories-a-podcast-about-pnp-chemsex-english-language-edition-7696069","url":"https://chemstories.podbean.com/e/19-yul-creativity-pt-3-%e2%80%94-the-trauma-llama/","audio_url":"https://mcdn.podbean.com/mf/web/wh3233g54cdnzz3u/19_YUL_Creativity-Pt_3_The_Trauma_Llamabdn4p.mp3","summary":"Éric, Gabriel, and Mikiki explore the tension between suffering and pleasure in chemsex, challenging the narrative that addiction stems solely from pain. They reflect on how substance use initially served as an \"antidote\" to perfectionism and trauma before spiraling into shame and isolation. The group discusses art's role in processing these experiences; Gabriel shares how his \"DEAR VICKY\" collection mourns his life before HIV while pivoting toward hope. Mikiki emphasizes curiosity over judgment and the value of humor. The episode concludes by urging listeners to embrace creative expression as a vital means of connection and survival. If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services.","meta_description":"Éric, Gabriel, and Mikiki explore the tension between suffering and pleasure in chemsex, challenging the narrative that addiction stems solely from pain.…","key_points":[],"chapters":[],"topics":[],"duration_seconds":2018,"processing_state":"not_requested","actions":[{"name":"request_transcript","method":"POST","url":"https://stenobird.com/v1/public/podcasts/chemstories-a-podcast-about-pnp-chemsex-english-language-edition-7696069/episodes/19-yul-creativity-pt-3-the-trauma-llama/transcription-requests","description":"Idempotently request low-priority transcript generation for this episode."},{"name":"read_markdown","method":"GET","url":"https://stenobird.com/podcast/chemstories-a-podcast-about-pnp-chemsex-english-language-edition-7696069/19-yul-creativity-pt-3-the-trauma-llama.md","description":"Read the agent-friendly Markdown representation of this episode resource."}]}}