# Stay or Go? The Question That Terrifies People with Childhood Trauma

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Podcast: [The Crappy Childhood Fairy Podcast with Anna Runkle](https://stenobird.com/podcast/the-crappy-childhood-fairy-podcast-with-anna-runkle-5678290)
Published: 2026-04-21T07:00:00+00:00
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## Resource

A listener struggles with the decision to stay in a relationship marked by CPTSD triggers, fear of abandonment, and partner substance use. The discussion explores whether the relationship tension stems from fundamental incompatibility or unhealed trauma responses.

## Highlights
- Main idea: CPTSD often manifests as a cycle of clinginess and avoidance, making it difficult to assess a partner's true character
- Practical takeaway: Use your partner's love language, such as verbal affirmation, to bridge communication gaps caused by emotional numbness
- Failure mode: Attempting to control a partner's substance use or habits can create further instability and resentment
- Practical takeaway: Maintain separate social identities and hobbies to prevent total emotional enmeshment and codependency
- Main idea: The fear of intimacy and future planning is often a symptom of past abandonment trauma rather than a lack of love

## Topics

CPTSD, Childhood Trauma, Relationship Advice, Abandonment Issues, Trauma Bonds, Emotional Regulation, Codependency, Attachment Theory

## Chapters
- 4:20 — The Cycle of Clinginess and Avoidance: An exploration of how CPTSD symptoms cause erratic relationship behaviors and fear of abandonment.
- 8:00 — Uncertainty About the Future: Discussing the tension between a partner's desire for children and the survivor's fear of parental competence.
- 11:00 — The Difficulty of Verbalizing Feelings: Addressing the physical and emotional paralysis that prevents expressing love and commitment.
- 16:40 — Identifying Fear of Abandonment: Analyzing the moment casual indifference turns into intense panic when a breakup becomes a real possibility.
- 19:30 — Panic and Future Planning: How trauma-induced dread can sabotage long-term relationship stability and trust.
- 22:20 — Discerning Trauma Bonds from Love: Using mentors and external support to differentiate between healthy attachment and trauma-based dependency.
- 30:50 — Maintaining Healthy Boundaries: The importance of maintaining separate social lives and avoiding the trap of controlling a partner's behavior.

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