# I Lived the Twelve Steps Backwards - AA Speaker - Tarek K.

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Podcast: [Sober Sunrise - AA Speaker Podcast](https://stenobird.com/podcast/sober-sunrise-aa-speaker-podcast-7161561)
Published: 2026-06-01T13:00:00+00:00
Episode link: https://sober-sunrise.podbean.com/e/i-lived-the-twelve-steps-backwards-aa-speaker-tarek-k/
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## Resource

Tarek says he did not just resist AA. He lived the Twelve Steps backwards until alcohol stopped working and his life shrank to fear, isolation, and trying to control everything. ☀️ Sober Sunrise Episode ArchiveMore AA speaker tapes and recovery stories:https://sober-sunrise.com/episodes 🧡 Sober Sunrise MerchShirts, mugs, and recovery-inspired gear:https://sober-sunrise.com/merch 🌴 Sober Sunrise NewsletterWeekly AA speaker picks, recovery reflections, and updates:https://sober-sunrise.com/newsletter Tarek, eight years sober from Soho Sober in London, shares with humor and honesty about the fear, people-pleasing, control, and emotional shutdown that drove his drinking. Alcohol first made him feel okay, but by the end he had money in the bank, unopened bills, a family upstairs, and a life narrowed down to work, isolation, and daily blackout drinking. After months of ignoring a sober therapist’s suggestion to try AA, he finally came through a 12-step rehab, got a sponsor, joined a home group, and started learning how to live through meetings, service, sponsorship, Step 11, and letting go of the outcome. Tarek K. from London, UK speaking at the Christmas convention of the Serenity Group in Stockholm, Sweden - December 15th 2012 Music: Deep by KaizanBlu

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