# Drinking to Fit In, Learning to Belong: Alexi Cruz's Sober Story

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Podcast: [One for the Road: The Quit Drinking Podcast](https://stenobird.com/podcast/one-for-the-road-the-quit-drinking-podcast-3741204)
Published: 2025-11-07T06:00:00+00:00
Episode link: https://shows.acast.com/one-for-the-road-1/episodes/alexi-kruiz
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## Resource

Alexi Cruz shares how she used alcohol to mask sensory sensitivities and navigate a childhood defined by chaos. She details her journey from using drinking as a social tool to finding stability through ADHD awareness and radical self-acceptance.

## Highlights
- Main idea: Alcohol served as a sensory and social mask to help navigate a world that felt overwhelming
- Failure mode: Chasing familiar chaos and unstable relationships as a way to replicate childhood patterns
- Practical takeaway: Using external tools like 'emotional hoarding' techniques to process trauma without being overwhelmed
- Main idea: The connection between neurodivergence, sensory sensitivity, and the urge to use substances to 'fit in'
- Practical takeaway: Transitioning from seeking external validation to practicing radical acceptance of one's true self

## Topics

Sobriety, ADHD, Sensory Processing, Trauma Recovery, Self-Acceptance, Addiction, Neurodivergence, Mental Health

## Chapters
- 1:00 — Alcohol as a Sensory Mask: Alexi discusses using alcohol to cope with sensory sensitivity and the pressure to appear confident in social settings.
- 6:20 — Childhood Roots: Reflections on early childhood creativity and the beginnings of a restless personality.
- 11:40 — Navigating Early Hardship: Finding humor and coping mechanisms during the transition to secondary school.
- 16:50 — The Mask of Chaos: How absorbing others' drama became a familiar, albeit destructive, way to avoid personal responsibility.
- 22:10 — Drinking to Belong: The realization that drinking was a tool used to avoid feeling like an outsider.
- 27:20 — Cycles of Addiction: Moving into environments that mirrored the chaotic, high-consumption lifestyle of her upbringing.
- 32:40 — Breaking the Pattern: The decision to leave toxic environments and pursue a professional identity in hairdressing.

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