# I Had to Lose Two Marriages To Learn How To Love Myself

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Podcast: [Not Saving It For Later - Guiding Women Through Divorce & Beyond](https://stenobird.com/podcast/not-saving-it-for-later-guiding-women-through-divorce-beyond-7583647)
Published: 2026-05-12T04:00:00+00:00
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## Resource

Season 2 Episode 1: I Had to Lose Two Marriages To Learn How To Love Myself If you've ever walked out of one relationship straight into the next and wondered why it started to feel familiar — this conversation is for you. Amy Edwards is the host of "Anything But Mid" and "The Amy Edwards Show", an author, and a musician who looks nothing like the version of "in her 50s" most of us were sold. She's also been divorced twice. In this episode, she's open about all of it — including the parts most women won't say out loud — and we get into pick-me energy, why cheating is rarely about the other person, the mirror practice that changed everything, and how worthiness, respect, and self-trust actually get built. This one is raw, funny, and full of the kind of honesty that makes you sit up a little straighter. If you're somewhere in the middle of a divorce — or somewhere in the middle of trying to figure out who you are again — start here. Timestamps: 00:58 — Meet Amy Edwards: podcaster, author, musician 03:20 — Two divorces, three marriages, and "anything but mid" 04:30 — Why we repeat the same patterns in the next relationship 06:40 — "I'm the common denominator" 08:30 — The dark hole: hope, depression, and getting through it day by day 10:00 — Where was I giving away my power?- 12:30 — Why cheating wasn't about the husbands — it was about validation- 13:15 — *Love Yourself Like Your Life Depends On It* (Kamal Ravikant) and the mirror practice 15:40 — Pick-me energy: how women get conditioned into it- 16:20 — The self-love test: can you sit alone in the quiet? 18:00— Do your preferences matter? Centering yourself in your own life. 19:40 — Self-love → self-worth → self-respect → self-trust 21:15 — "You are worthy because you exist. Full stop."- 22:00 — Worthy of joy, peace, a c…

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