# Why Does Money Fear Hit Hard? 😰

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Podcast: [Moonshot Mentor with Laverne McKinnon](https://stenobird.com/podcast/moonshot-mentor-with-laverne-mckinnon-6611026)
Published: 2026-02-09T13:02:13+00:00
Episode link: https://moonshotmentor.substack.com/p/why-does-money-fear-hit-hard
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This is a free preview of a paid episode. To hear more, visit moonshotmentor.substack.com If your career is shifting, your money story gets a vote in every decision you make. And it’s not because you’re bad at math or you “should have planned better.” It gets a vote because money is not just money. Money touches safety. Options. Identity. What you can say yes to. What you have to say no to. And when work gets uncertain, money stops being background noise. It walks right up to the microphone and says, “Hello, hello? Is this thing on?” I learned this the hard way. The first time my unspoken money story showed up was in my early twenties, when I was transitioning jobs and going through a divorce. At the time, I was (barely) earning more than my husband who was a middle school teacher. When we separated, he asked for financial support. I felt guilty about the state of our marriage, so I agreed. And then guilt met fear, and I made a decision I could not sustain. I racked up a lot of credit card debt trying to keep everything looking fine. It got so bad I had to cut myself off from my credit cards and use the envelope system. Actual cash in actual envelopes. Gas. Food. Utilities. Car repair. There were no envelopes for going out, clothing, or self care. All I could hear in my head was: “There isn’t enough. There will never be enough.” That sentence didn’t come out of nowhere. It was inherited. My dad grew up during the Great Depression. My mom lived in poverty in Japan during World War II. Not having enough was a true, lived experience for them. I’ve been fortunate to have enough, but that generational trauma is in me. This is why I’m writing about money in a post about career strategy. Because during a setback, a pivot, or a dry spell between gigs, your money story is going…

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