# When Survival Is the Only Prayer You Have Left - With Tawny Fortin

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Podcast: [Look To Him](https://stenobird.com/podcast/look-to-him-7858046)
Published: 2026-05-20T12:53:56+00:00
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## Resource

Join us for a raw and unforgettable conversation with Tawny, who was born into chaos: a mother she describes as a “professional alcoholic,” a father tied to a 1%er motorcycle gang and meth manufacturing, and a childhood where survival felt normal. Her story moves through addiction, motherhood, recovery, and the devastating death of her son — the kind of loss that shattered every illusion of control she had left. But standing in the wreckage of what she could not fix, Tawny says she found God. This episode is about grief, surrender, and the brutal mercy of discovering that even when people like her don’t know how to find God, God still knows exactly where to find them.

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