# “I Am Absolutely Terrified of This” - Ryan Opens Up About Something Deeply Personal

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Podcast: [He Said, She Said](https://stenobird.com/podcast/he-said-she-said-7033857)
Published: 2026-05-05T23:03:00+00:00
Episode link: https://shows.acast.com/he-said-she-said-pod/episodes/episode-15
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## Resource

This week’s episode is a deeply personal one for Ryan, as he opens up about the experience of watching his grandma live with dementia, and the impact it’s had on him. He shares why it’s something that truly scares him, and reflects on the complicated ways we process change, including his own feelings about wanting to hold onto someone as they once were. We then get into the topic of sleepovers… when is the “right” age, will Leo be allowed, and what about adult ones? Louise and Ryan have very different views on what happens if Leo brings someone home in the future…. And with Louise deep in her reality TV era thanks to Temptation Island (we get Ryan’s very honest reaction to it), the conversation turns to reality shows more broadly… on whether they have any regrets about their Made in Chelsea days? 🗓 New episodes every Wednesday 📩 We’ve got a NEW email! Want to get involved? Email HSSS@srproductions.co.uk or slide straight into our DMs @hesaid.shesaid.podcast. We want it all. Your dilemmas, questions, voice notes, stories and opinions. If it’s pod-related, we’re listening. 🩵 Follow us everywhere   Instagram | TikTok | Youtube  @hesaid.shesaid.podcast And of course… don’t forget to subscribe, follow, rate and review. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

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