# Why Couldn't I Sleep?

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Podcast: [happy healthy hustle](https://stenobird.com/podcast/happy-healthy-hustle-6249827)
Published: 2026-07-04T00:27:54+00:00
Episode link: https://rss.com/podcasts/happyhealthyhustle/2962721
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## Resource

For years I taught people how to reach their health goals... while quietly failing at one of my own. I barely slept five hours a night. Sometimes less. And I did not just notice it. I judged myself for it. Hard. Here I was, a leadership coach who teaches energy, focus, and wellbeing... and I could not get my own sleep under control. So the thought became "what's wrong with me?" That question is shame. And shame keeps you frozen. I tried everything. Resolutions. Resets. Morning routines. Mindset work. Every night I told myself tonight would be different. Every night it wasn't. Then something shifted. Not a dramatic move. A small one. Almost like a petite practice. I stopped asking who I was and started looking at what I was doing. That is the difference between shame and guilt. Shame says "I'm the problem." Guilt says "something I'm doing isn't working." One freezes you. The other gives you something to work with. Once I got honest, I got unstuck. In this episode: → Why shame keeps you looping, and how to catch it → The one question that moved me from shame to action → The real difference between guilt and shame → The small outside support that changed my sleep (no pressure, just data) → How one petite practice turned five hours of sleep into real recovery The line I want you to keep: you might not be the problem after all. If you have been telling yourself "I should have figured this out by now"... this one is for you. This is exactly what my new book is about. Petite Practice: Small, Steady Steps to a Life of Momentum and Real Change, out August 16. Become a Founding Pioneer for early access and bonuses: https://doctorchristiane.com/books/#bonus Where in your life are you operating from shame, when guilt would set you free?

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