# Raw Birthday Thoughts - Why Am I Even Alive? Dealing with Discouragement and Disappointment | John Giftah

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Published: 2026-08-12T00:00:03+00:00
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In this special birthday episode, I open up with raw honesty about seasons of discouragement, disappointment, and those moments when the question hits hard — "Why am I even alive?" Through Psalm 13 and the powerful story of Mephibosheth, we’ll uncover how even in our lowest valleys, GOD’s covenant love never lets go, and His plans for us still stand. This isn’t just my story — it’s a reminder for you that your pain can have a purpose, and your life still matters more than you think. Whether you’re feeling stuck, overlooked, or like your prayers are going unanswered, this heartfelt episode will encourage you to hold on, trust GOD’s timing, and see His hand working behind the scenes. 📖 Key Scriptures: Psalm 13, 2 Samuel 9 💬 Theme: Honest struggles, hope in GOD, purpose in pain Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/fuel-for-the-soul-with-john-giftah-biblical-teaching-faith-podcast--4939473/support . This episode is part of Fuel for the Soul with John Giftah, a leading Christian podcast featuring Christian sermons, Christian motivational messages, Christian inspirational sermons, and Christian interviews to help you grow in faith, purpose, and everyday life. 📚 Get My Bestselling Book UNVEIL YOUR PURPOSE (Amazon #1 Bestseller) 🇮🇳 India https://www.amazon.in/UNVEIL-YOUR-PURPOSE-John-Giftah/dp/B08K2CJKP2/ 🌍 Global https://www.amazon.com/Unveil-Your-Purpose-Complete-Created-ebook/dp/B08L7XX9PJ/ 🌍 Stay Connected YouTube (Christian sermons & inspirational messages) https://www.youtube.com/johngiftah Instagram (Daily Christian encouragement) https://www.instagram.com/johngiftah Facebook https://www.facebook.com/sjohngiftah/ Website https://www.johngiftah.com/ ❤️ Support the Ministry If this Christian sermon or message blessed you: • Share with s…

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