# "I'm pregnant with my second child. I still miss who I was before my first.": The truth about motherhood

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Podcast: [Dial Emma](https://stenobird.com/podcast/dial-emma-5229217)
Published: 2026-06-15T00:00:00+00:00
Episode link: https://dial-emma.captivate.fm
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## Resource

Welcome back to Dial Emma! I have a new miniseries for you, lovely listeners, that I'm calling The Truth - exploring the uncomfortable, illicit truths that we often feel like we aren't supposed to say out loud. In this first episode, we hear from a listener who is pregnant with her second child, but still mourning the version of herself before she became a mother for the first time. Can we love the life we have right now, and long for an old one, at exactly the same time? Are we allowed to feel more than one thing at once: appreciation for the life we chose, and grief for what was displaced in the process? Dial Emma is hosted by Emma Reed Turrell, produced by Lauren Brook. --- Book my 2027 women's retreat at Bliss House in Crete: https://bliss-house-experience.replit.app Social media: Emma Reed Turrell @emmareedturrell Dial Emma @dialemmapodcast Email: contact@dial-emma.uk

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