# Bonus. YYZ Wisdom-Pt. 4 — Velvet Mourning

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Podcast: [Chemstories – a podcast about PnP/chemsex (English-language edition)](https://stenobird.com/podcast/chemstories-a-podcast-about-pnp-chemsex-english-language-edition-7696069)
Published: 2026-02-05T22:05:00+00:00
Episode link: https://chemstories.podbean.com/e/bonus-yyz-wisdom-pt-4-velvet-mourning/
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Duration seconds: 1538

## Resource

In this bonus leg of the Wisdom flight, the conversation turns to the "velvet mourning" of widowhood. Matthew discusses the tragic loss of his partner to an overdose, while Reid recounts the isolation of grieving a partner of nine years who had never come out to his family—resulting in the erasure of their relationship at the funeral. The discussion explores navigating cumulative grief, from the AIDS crisis to the present, and how they find spiritual grounding. They conclude by reflecting on the necessity of boundaries and why disconnecting from the "using" community was vital for their well-being. If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services. 🔗 Other Resources Mentioned "George Street": To read the full text of Matthew's poem.

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