# From Wrestling God to Resting in Him | My Testimony of Peace

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Podcast: [Bedtime Talks With Zhan](https://stenobird.com/podcast/bedtime-talks-with-zhan-7114091)
Published: 2026-05-03T23:58:17+00:00
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## Resource

It's Testimony time Little Angels! Listen, since late November 2025 to about now May 2026 me and my family have truly been going through. I truly have not faced so much tragedy and heart ache before. Sometimes it's very sobering to remember your heart will still ache even in Christ. I have talked on the podcast before how much I get frustrated and how desperate I am to see change in my life. Whether it be in my finances, in my content, in my living situation, or even in healing for my family. I desire better for my family and myself. As I have been waiting I have experience being fatigued in my journey with God and tried to put matters into my own hands. Please take my story as a reminder that we can still manipulate God and try to control Him with our prayers out of desperation. Pay attention because I said "try". God does not move on our timing. And he does not move by our tantrums because we are tired of waiting. I'm still going through just like you. I pray this testimony brings you hope and shows you how God will sustain you while you wait on the promises of God!! Make sure to comment! ~ Be honest... are you wrestling with God or resting in Him right now? T une in now and join the conversation! ________________________________________ CHAPTERS: 1:56 - Prayer for my Little Angelz 2:53 - A closer look into the wrestle with God (Desperation - Frustration) 4:10 - Genesis chapter 32: 22-29 (The wrestle and then the hold) 6:09 - What are you wrestling God about? 8:38 - My Testimony (Story time!!!) 19:04 - The blessing before the fall 29:10 - Reasons why I started to wrestle with God 34:45 - I fasted and received revelation from God 36:07 - Life's tragedies can be heavy... 38:45 - Heart Rehab by Pastor Jerry Flowers ( https://a.co/d/0eO8tBdM ) 42:19 - What I learned from…

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