# 26. Why You Can't Accept Kindness: Masking, Surface Acting and the Wall That Blocks Love In

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Podcast: [ADHD Mums](https://stenobird.com/podcast/adhd-mums-6363089)
Published: 2026-08-19T19:00:00+00:00
Episode link: https://adhdmums.com.au/captivate/why-you-cant-accept-kindness-masking-surface-acting
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Duration seconds: 1707

## Resource

Your best friend leaves a box of tampons on your doorstep on the worst day of your fortnight — no fuss, no waiting around, just quietly handling the piece of the nightmare nobody else saw. And you well up. Real tears. And then you wait ten minutes to make sure she's gone before you'll even open the door, delete the thank-you you started typing, and walk off. Because you could not have said it to her face if someone paid you. If you're the woman who leaves a gift on a doorstep and runs, who dodges goodbyes with people she loves, who can't stand inside a thank you — you've probably filed that away as proof you're cold. Broken in the part where you're meant to feel things. This episode is Jane pulling that file back out and finding the opposite: it's not that the love is missing. It might be flooding. Masking, surface acting, and the wall that goes up right where other people let love in — and why every piece of advice you've been given points you the wrong way. CHAPTERS 00:00 — Twenty-one, on an Emirates training flight, and my face is the problem 01:34 — Learning the Barbie-princess smile in the mirror 02:32 — The box of tampons, and the door I couldn't open 04:45 — Ten minutes, a deleted text, and walking off in tears 05:31 — The filing cabinet: 'there's something wrong with me,' opened at 2am 06:22 — The goodbyes I swerve, the thank-yous I can't stand in 07:43 — 'I'm not cold. I cried over a box of tampons.' 08:33 — The real problem: a feeling with no volume control 08:56 — What was actually happening on those flights 13:46 — Surface acting: the sociologist who studied this in 1983 16:05 — Two settings — perform the okay face, or leave 18:49 — Why every piece of 'just be present' advice fails someone like me 20:55 — The therapy this is secretly built on — ACT, and act…

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