# 81. Excruciatingly Beautiful: When Joy and Grief Collide in Motherhood

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Podcast: [A Heart That Beats for Home](https://stenobird.com/podcast/a-heart-that-beats-for-home-6707974)
Published: 2026-02-05T11:00:00+00:00
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Duration seconds: 2069

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We would love to hear from you! Text us any feedback. In this heartfelt episode, Nikki shares an honest conversation about the tension so many mothers feel but rarely name, the joy and grief that exist side by side as our children grow and begin to let go of our hands. From sending a child off to college to watching her youngest drive away for the first time, Nikki reflects on the moments that feel both painful and beautiful at once. She introduces the phrase “excruciatingly beautiful” to de...

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